March 1, 2020


I don’t usually vent in a public forum, but maybe I just need someone to tell me things are going to be ok. I’m full of nerves right now. My current employer has slashed hours for pretty much everyone, leaving me to constantly barter for more hours to fill the gaps. Although I’ve been able to do that for the past couple of weeks, it’s still a bit of a crap shoot and the process is a bit of a pain in the ass. I’d rather just have the comfort of knowing when I’m working.

That said, I am looking for work. I’m looking for a change of careers in general. I’ve been to college twice and I’m not doing anything with any of that education and it bothers me. I’m eventually looking for something along the lines of IT, tech support, or something dealing with web design. I had an interview with a company where the job meets somewhere in the middle. The hours are good, I’m sure the pay is as well, and the workplace environment seems extremely welcoming. I want this job!

Where the nerves come in is I haven’t made it past the first interview so far in my job search. I fear my lack of experience is coming into play, bringing in that issue of how do you gain experience if nobody gives you a chance? A chance is all I need because I know what I can do and what I’m capable of.

This week feels like a big week for me and I feel like a huge load will come off if things go right. I just hope they do.